12 August 2008

Around 1 Week Later, She Send Me A Message.
Saying that She Felt Alone In This World,The Feelings Was Not The Same Anymore.
Even I am Not Her Who Anymore, But I am Still Worried About Her.
I Thought That This Is the Time To Understand Her Better. I asked Her What Happen to Her.
And She said She Cannot Say It Out. I really don't Know What Is She Thinking At All
I tell Her that She Is Not Alone. She Still Have Me by Her Side. No matter Wad Happen I will Not Leave Her. Unless I am Dead, Or Else there Is No way I will Be Leaving Her. I will Be There whenever She Need Someone To Talk To, Or need Someone To Accompany. (Until Now I still Doing It. Its true okay. I won't Break My Promise de.)

After That, I think Back. I told Her before. I can Used Up ALL my Free SMS, Or even My SMS Burst, I will Still Message Her. Because I don't Want Her to Feel Bored.

(Sometimes I wonder Is It True That Using Efforts And A True Heart Will Never ever Let Somebody Feel Touched?? Or I Did Not Do Enough?? Can Somebody Please Tell Me Am I Not Doing enough??)

I remembered I saw Her Blog Few Days Ago, She Assume That I Leave Her Will Feel Much More Happier And Have A Better Life.
NO!!! I Do Not Feel Happy At All LA!!
I Have Been Think Of Her Every Single Day. I controlled Myself Not To SMS Her,Because She Said She Is Happy with Her Life now. I do Not Wan Her To Struck In this Shit Problem I Having.
I don't want Her To Get Unhappy Because Of Me. So I only Read Her Blog Once In awhile. ( As I do Not Have Computer During August)
UntilI read Her Blog On this Day, I realised That She Bluff Me.
She Is Not Happy At All.
She Is Suffering. She Lied Because She Want Me To Have Better Life.
Why Does She Always Think Of others.
This Few Days I can't Even concentrate On the Things I have Been Doing, Like My Pratical. I have Been Thinking Of Her During My Pratical. (Because It got Something To Do with My Dream And Target.)

I Really Miss Her.
But....
There Is Nothing I can Do Anymore.